She never gave up..

I remember stealing from her & going through her jewelry box to find things to pawn so that I could buy cocaine.

I remember taking her credit card and going to buy hundreds of dollars in food just to throw it up.

I remember taking her car and going on "adventures" to the bar. 

I remember loudly saying the F word over and over, in public if not directly at her then in her general direction.

i remember breaking her rules and treating her as if she had no authority.

I remember screaming at her when I was detoxing and throwing things around the house

I remember running away from home and not telling her where I was and left her to worry. 

 ((my mom and I in Arizona where I went to rehab at, this was about one month in when I started to smile again))

 ((my mom and I in Arizona where I went to rehab at, this was about one month in when I started to smile again))

I also remember that no matter how I treated her she never held a grudge and like the prodigal son's father, each time she welcomed me back with open arms.

My mom is pretty quick to forgive and doesn't hold on to anger. She would give you her food if you didn't have any and she would go without.  

My mom is honest, kind, sincere, trusting, loving, encouraging, devoted, and treasured. I have no doubt that when I was placed into her arms on day one that God did that for a reason. 

My mom has shown me what it looks like to be a good mom, wife, and grandma. Even when the world around her has fallen apart she stood talk and strong and faithfully. 

my mom is a dream encourager, a hard worker and she speaks life.  When I wasn't treating her with love she still loved me and never gave up or doubted once. I'm really greatful for you mom and even though I am not awesome at showing affection I hope you will always know how much I love, suck it! 

((Side note: when I was growing we didn't say I love you so as I grew up those words became harder and harder to say, eventually I just started saying suck it which really meant I love you.... Now my whole family says that- it sounds mean from the outside but it's not)) 

i was asked yesterday to help with a secret Mother's Day surprise by a husband. My job was to letter truths from the bible that were hand picked by him and their little girls. I don't know about y'all but if I stumbled upon this truth door in my house it would encourage me daily. The bottom line says "Remember your truth" and I think that may just be something we all struggle with.

i was asked yesterday to help with a secret Mother's Day surprise by a husband. My job was to letter truths from the bible that were hand picked by him and their little girls. I don't know about y'all but if I stumbled upon this truth door in my house it would encourage me daily. The bottom line says "Remember your truth" and I think that may just be something we all struggle with.

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A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies. Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value. She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands. She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar. She gets up while it is still night; she provides food for her family and portions for her female servants. She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard. She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks. She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night. In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers. She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy. When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet. She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple. Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land. She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes. She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: “Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.” Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. (Proverbs 31:10-30 NIV)

Happy Motner's day to all you mom, grandmas, and great grandmas. You all are so loved. if this is a hard day for you because your kids aren't making the right decisions or right now they aren't the most awesome acting kids, remember... I was a crappy thieving and addicted daughter and there is hope. God's word says "If you believe you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer." And I believe that.. Don't give up, he has great power and is capable of changing hard hearts in to soft loving ones! You are worth it and he is with you. Do not give up, even when we don't know how or what to pray he's there and will intercede. You are enough!

valerie

Posted on May 11, 2014 .